....:)

having steamboat with family before enlist...
Have no idea why i eat with a heavy heart.

Just now watched abt medical show.
Today topic is depression.
I have no idea why ppl look down or feel different on these people.
They need help.
That's all.
A listening ear.
Someone who support him/her all the way.
That's all.
Is that so difficult?

If one day,
i have the power and money....
i will make sure everyone will get enough help and support.

Till now,
havent prepare yet for army.
Neither enlistment stuff or mentally.
Sianz...
Totally no life before army.
After army will be the same.
But one thing i hope is...
i go in i will become a changed man.

Somehow i feel that promise can't be trusted.
Words from people are hard to believe.
No matter how much they say or what...
like never give up on you or what...

Like what i say in the previous entry.
"When that person is a pain in the butt most of the time, drive you up the wall, makes you go mad. And yet, you still hold his/her hand like everything's fine and hug him/her with all the love you've got. "

now i come to realise...
last time no matter what happen...
you have alot of problem/trouble...
never did i once give up on you once.
All i did is keep on trying to solve your problem.
i tried as hard as possible.

Maybe i think too much...
Maybe i put in as much as i can...
That's why the side effect is still on.
Please go away...

I wonder are you really happy now.

Anyway,
got one link...
http://www.songtaste.com/
alots of nice song and inspiration quotes down there.

Meaningful... :)



Very creative... i love it.






hahha....suddenly saw it in my photobucket account..
:)

Someone

最近我常常自言自语忽然发现,
我真的很寂寞...

疯狂的想念音 ...
想念一个可以谈心的好友

Recently i realise i have been talking to someone...
No matter what i say,
he just dun want to reply me.
No matter what i do,
he have no reaction.

Only now then i realise...
i am talking to myself.

What i only wish is just....
Please...

Two more days to army...
Strange enough,
i dun feel any nervous or what...
I quite anticipate to go in.
I have no idea why.
Maybe hope can go in hide from everything.
I just want to run away.

Since young,
i have been doing things alone no matter what.
Maybe that's why i hate alone.
No matter what i encounter,
i can only solve it myself.
Hmmm....
Sometime i just need some or maybe a little bit guidence.
Maybe this is fate.

I am born to brave everything alone. :)
Frankyly speaking,
i hate alot...

Feel

听音乐，直到凌晨三点，
感觉还是很心痛，
看样子，
音乐对我来说，也不能药到病除。
这个世界让我们变成病人，我们是自己的医生。

the world make us become patient...
actually we are our doctor.

一切都会过去的
只是时间问题 ...

i saw one sentence post in forum and i agree with it abt love.

"When that person is a pain in the butt most of the time, drive you up the wall, makes you go mad. And yet, you still hold his/her hand like everything's fine and hug him/her with all the love you've got. "

一直以来自己都不敢随便去做一件事,因为害怕自己不够坚持 ...

i...i...i....
hmmmm........

.............



失敗者的飛翔
你知道吗 听你说话
我只需要 听你说话
在你的声音中 安全的让我害怕
这是一个快乐的 警告 警告我别想逃
这个特别的时刻 判断 绝不会是你想要
你的温柔 包围而我 像个没人爱的傻瓜
你的影子 巨大 像喧嚣的脏话
在一片欢乐的景象之中 我却觉得勉强
在离别的前夕 找不忧伤的台阶下
你承认吧 你也想要体验..........

来不及为你歌唱 你潇洒而昂扬
在一片荒凉的景象之中 我却觉得晴朗
让我为你飞翔 在你残破的天空之上
让我为你飞翔 在你残破的天空之上

how....?

今夜

我想今夜就這樣吧，就算孤獨也無所謂...

Two layers...

Everyone of us have two layers of cloth...
First is the cloth we wear...
Another one is our skin...
They are meant to keep our heart warm...
keep our body warm...
protect us for any problem...

One more week....
Why happy must call happy?
How come it can't call sad or what...?
Why must be h-a-p-p-y?

Give me courage...
Give me strength...
I promise i will return you double...
I just need it now...
I mean right now...

I hate...

十字口

我讨厌一个人过十字口
只要是一个人的时候都会低着头眼睛会泄露太多
我怕别人看见我的彷徨和恐惧

其实寂寞会摧毁人更多的精力
好比在一片空白的时刻还在坚持胡思乱想

堅持

有時候會想 堅持是不是一種跟自己過不去的方式?
堅持到最後 有時甚至會忘記自己的堅持是什麼?
堅持有沒有意義? 或者
堅持只是一種不想妥協不想服輸的行為呢?
堅持久了，倦了， 厭了，
忽然，就忘了原本的堅持是什麽。。
只是堅持著。。

人，最容易習慣，
人，最不容易改變習慣，
於是愛慣了，
堅持慣了，
生活慣了。。


也許某個瞬間，
人們會突然厭惡自己的慣了，
也就是瞬間，
末了一切仍是慣了的繼續。。

這就是生活
永恒不變的習慣。。
堅持慣了，還是慣了堅持，
誰知道？反正 堅持就是勝利。。

are you the one?

A Meaningful Script

Found a script written by unknown...
Found it meaningful and intend to share with you all.

我才發現。原來失戀的標志不是分手。而是當兩個人其中的一個遇到另 外一個人。
我強忍著告訴自己。千萬不許哭。 　　　　
太沒出息。整夜未能入眠。 　　　　
滿腦子都在被那些永遠找不到答案的問題蹂躪。 　　　　
我知道。 　　　　
我在自找苦吃。 　　　　
笑吧。盡管笑我的傻。我的自作多情。我的自作自受。 　　　　 　　　　
你是我的。誰也不許動。知道么。 　　　　
幸福將我拋棄。 　　　　　　　　
就连牵手别的男子。都从身体里面觉得恶心。 　　　　
而你。 　　　　
竟然残忍的在我面前炫耀你的光。 　　　　
貌似给了我深深的一记耳光。 　　　　
下手如此之狠。 　　　　 　　　　
痛彻心扉。 　　　　 　　　　
比我离开你的时候痛之万倍。。 　　　　 　　　　

给我一粒光盘。 　　　　
重装系统。 　　　　
为我洗去关于你的所有记忆。

i am....

soon....
army life...

i have extended my working life.
Will work till the last four day before army.
Believe i dun need that much time to rest.
It is better to keep myself busy...

Many things happened recently...
i am afraid to see people around me sad over something.
i pray hard...
every sadness will transfer to me.
i rather contain and suffer all the sadness than see them unhappy.
Sadness...
Please come to my world.
Stop torturing them.

I....
I...
I..
I have fear hiding inside me.

Want to run...
run to a place...
a place that can hide me for everything.
i am still finding the place.
Anyone know is that a place for me?

All these days have been going to cheer chen website.
The place is a nice place for people to stay in.
It is a simple and peaceful place.
I love what they wrote in there.
Sometime it can just strike your heart straight.
Here is the place :
http://www.cheerego.com/

Have been fighting against my inner self...
Indeed...
It is tiring.
But i wun admit lost so easily.
Cuz i dun want to let myself down.
There are time when i feel like giving up...
I have been looking around for something to keep me going...
At this moment is cheer chen.

Have been wondering...
how come she can be so simple...
how come she can have the courage and determination to do things she love...
how come she can be happy...
I am researching her now.
I want to learnt something from her.

i am looking for source of inspiration.

Now...
I just feel like...
Going backpacking travel around the world.
Doing volunteer work.
Be happy.
Enjoy everything.

Frankly speaking,
i really afraid to lost anything around me regarding is people or things.
i know i cant avoid it...
But i really afraid...