因為我還活著

一直嘗試著以往不敢碰的事
一直努力改變著
一直想辦法做到
想做的事一直
不讓自己有所遺憾
一直向前走著

因為我還活著.... :)

went to new york new york to have lunch with ow choon and steven....
the food there not bad...
just feel that abit ex...
oh ya....
ow choon is my head when my stay in NCS.
while steven is my so called understudy...
talk alot abt army stuff....
actually somehow it is nice to keep contact with old friends.... :)

went for driving lesson after that....
realise that i didnt bring my pdl....
hopefully the instructor will close one eyes for me....
but in the end,
i was being instruct to turn round and round at the circult..
totally waste of my time and money....
anyway, hopefully by tis year i will able to have driving lesson....!
wish me luck.... :)

tiong ndp on sat....
last min things....
bo bian have to do....
wake up at 5 and reach there at 6....
upon reaching...
i realise i was too early...
went to nearby mac to have my personal breakfast.
everything down there end around 12 plus...reach hm around 1am....
totally burn away my wkend... :(

somehow, i realised one thing....
a person cant be judged by how he looks...
the position he holding....
it is just so scary when u realise someone u respect..
is actually a slient killer....
dun mind it too much...
cuz i noe that i didn't do anything going against my concious...
it is fine with me....
the truth will remain the truth....
i grown up abit again... :)

i do my best in watever thing i do....
all i hope is in the end...
i never let myself down....

nowsday....

mens are blinded by the greed of money....

all we wish is to help those poor and needy ppl...

why do those organisation must make use of our trust in them to do something bad?

getting to lose hope in charity organisation....

taken using my camera on sat.... just feel tis year ndp is good... especially the visualuation effect is good.... believe alot of money have been spent....

how much i wish there is someone i love to acc me watch all these together... :)

cheer chen new song

i become more slient in words....
i dunnoe why....


anyway, cheer chen (陳綺貞) new song: 失敗者的飛翔

自覺不被擁抱的人
失去歸所的人，
腳踏實地卻也渴望飛的人，
都在這幅畫裡被接受了"

everyone need a place for them to hide....
this is where i like to hide...
hiding in her song...
like to go her website...
where all kinds of people will write watever they feel inside...
somehow i find someone have the same kind of feeling or thoughts....
it is just so peaceful...
it is just so nice...
feel secure...! :)

http://cheerego.com/dome_web/guest_t.php?pagenow=2

lyrics

你知道嗎　
聽你說話
我只需要聽你說話
在你的聲音中　
安全得讓我害怕

這是一個快樂的警告
警告我別想逃這個特別的時刻判斷絕不會是你想要你的溫柔　
包圍而我像個沒人愛的傻瓜
你的影子巨大　
像喧囂的髒話
在一片歡樂的景像之中
我卻覺得勉強

在離別的前夕　
找不憂傷的台階下
你承認吧
你也想要體驗英雄般的誇張悲壯
來不及為你歌唱
你瀟灑而昂揚在一片荒涼的景像之中
我卻覺得晴朗讓我為你飛翔　
在你殘破的天空之上當我聽你說話　給我肩並肩的擁抱

2150

went double o with km, xm and jackie...
at first went to zouk...
but in the end decided to go double o is because...
i never go there before...
want to explore new places....
not bad....
double o music is nicer than zouk.... :)
but zouk have more chio bu... hahaha...
it have its pro and con...

lunar next stop...!

i always have alot of thoughts when outside...
i guess i have to buy a new notebook....
so that i can write my thoughts down immediately...

i am tired...
but i believe i have the mentaillty to stay strong...
and be strong...
i am trying hard now....

trying to look everything as simple as possible....
trying not to be too harsh on myself...
learning how to enjoy life.... :)

somehow i like to watch girls dancing...
i dunnoe why...
i am attracted to that.... :)
oh ya... singing also... :)

when it's not meant to be together....
no matter how hard you try to hold on....
it's useless...
trying to realise it...
soon... ;)

immediate future of me:
noe how to play guitar...
buy and use dslr camera to capture all those memories...
travel around the world...
mentally strong person...
have car license...
expand my social life...
happiness.... :)

intend to buy a PC for my sis one...
cuz she need PC to use..
whenever walk pass a PC show will get tempted...
however...
my current finanical status doesn't allow me to do so...
so have to wait... :)
hahaha...i also can play the latest games too.

Song of the day...

盧廣仲 我愛你MV



盧廣仲 100種生活

0424

在充滿生存議題的城市，
在電腦螢幕前的孤單感受，
不管是成長或是戰鬥，
我們總有覺得自己失敗的時刻。

one wk review

todae went to watch "wanted" with somebody....
the show is quite nice....
after all, it have been a long time since i watched the last movie...

after going out with somebody,
i somehow realise two person that
have different mindset....
have different character...
somehow can't click....

feel quite digusted...
by the way you act...
by the way you speak...
by the way you think too big of yourself...

hahaha... just couldn't click...

feel quite uneasy...
and....
i feel that sometimes i do like to be alone...
like to be alone thinking of something....
like to be alone sometimes to do my own things...

maybe afterall...
shopping or watching movie alone is not a bad idea... :)
cheer to those whoever have the courage to do it....!

"batman the dark knight" here i come....
i have began to like to watch all these marvel heros movie...
my fav is "spiderman"
miss the hulk...
quite wasted....

raining quite heavily when i was driving on sat noon....
quite difficult at first to see the road...
however after a short while,
i am zai already....
in one short...
the instructor teach me three lessons...!

near the end of the lesson,
suddenly the instructor told me something which make me reflect after that....
he told me no one in this world can be trusted,
let alone the car...
in this world,
only parents that can be trusted...
if not, they will feed u posion when u r young....
spouse may betray you...
silbing may one day ignore you...
friends may backstab you...
who's else left?

being backstab by my bunkmates on the week...
just wouldn't understand y must he do that...
i thought we should help each other....
anyway...
i will just look out for my back next time.

new zeland trip next yrs!
planning to go hk tis sept...!
more more trip!

my dream is to go backpack travel around the world with the one i love.
bring alone my camera....!
that's all...
simple...!

maybe just like shufenie....
go oversea with frenz etc... :)

anyway, as i have mentioned earlier....
the girl that call me...
actually it is a scam...
she have been calling around use the same method fooling ppl..
wth...!
hahahaa....
luckily i didn't fall in the trap due to moment of follyness....!

the past wk have been sleepless nite for me...
just dunnoe how come i cant slp...
no matter how tired i am...
i just can't fall alsp...
sometimes around 2 plus slp...
then around 5 plus must wake up le....
haiz....
worry that "it" have come back to haunt me again! :(

going to learnt guitar next mths!

i wish to be strong...
i want to be strong...
i will be strong...!

song of the day...

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