long entry....

nowsday i have been trying to find someting for me to look forward to.
like a simple dinner with family is also something i look forward to everytime...
i treasure every moment when my family gather...
all of us have grown up...
maybe it's harder for us to gather.
everyone have their own thing to do or busy with...
i believe as time pass, as we grown older...
the times spent together will be lesser...
especially if my parent leave the world.
and each of us have own family...
will we still gather and have a simple dinner?
will the three of us still like when we are children play around and gather often?
i dunnoe...
but i hope so...

i dun want to lose any loves one around me.
i simply can't afford it...
dunnoe wat will happen to me if i lose anyone of them...
this is why everytime before i slp,
i pray for their well being...
i pray for them to live longer and healthier...
willing to exchange anything for their happiness. :)
i am contented when my loves one is happy and smiling.
i values relationship alot.

maybe i should learnt to let go easily...
maybe i should learnt to accept the truth...
maybe i should learnt to look forward...
maybe...
maybe...
to let myself feel better.
Will i able to learnt it? :)

dun want to have reget in future..
so i treasure....

i hate reget...

when we are young, we hope we can grow older and become adult...
but when we are adult, we hope we can go back and become the child we used to be. :)
complicated mind...!

sometimes i feel that i dun mind become "ah wang"
although he is mentally not sound...
but he can bring happiness to everyone around him...
he is easily contented. :)
simple...

i like to keep thing to myself...
hmmm...cant say i like...
just that can't really find someone to talk with..
maybe i am used to it...
i just like to be alone sometimes...
but not always...

person around u really can affect u...
i used to be a mentally strong person...
but wat happen for the past few yrs...
the person close to me have extremely negative thought...
directly or indirectly have affected me...
i am used to have this thinking le...
but i believe i am able to go back to the person i used to be.

until now, then i find sleeping is really important.
havent been slping well for the past few yrs...
have really seriously affected my daily life and performance.
strongly believe this is the main reason of why i have been always low.
i noe...
i noe that one day when i am able to slp good and well continuously...
i will be back...
back stronger...
tis is wat i feel...
i am going to pay back to my sleeping master.
own him too much...

i want to be my own hero...
i can be my own hero...
i will be my own hero.. :)
a matter of time...
soon...

so many natural disasters going on...
is this a sign of world end?
let's pray hard and hope the well-being of everyone.
let's work hard together for the benefit of our next generation.
everything will be fine soon....
hoping...
praying...
let everyone's face be a smiling one.
not worry, not saddness.


晴天 阴天 今天又是星期天
唯一的打算是醒得晚一些
反正我不知道怎样打发时间
出门或不出门 没差别

those words above is from todae song of the day.
just find it say out my feeling...
really....
touched....!


song of the day...
蔡依林- 一个人